its strange.

sometimes you want all the attention, and you feel like that one person you want attention from is too busy and all...

and then, it flips around, and you feel like you don't want all the attention, but that one person insists on giving it to you.

strange how you want there to be less time, but when you realise that there is so little time...

panic.

that strange emotion, triggerring the body's first defense and starting th stress signals in your body. Are you up to the challenge or not.

I have... a deadline for this friday that i did not expect... its for a final thats about 12 pages long. and that's not the end of the story. There's more, but i shall spare us all the gory details. All i know is...

by God's grace.

pray for me, and wait for me to be home. =) in 19 days!

*hug*

Almost there

It has come to my attention that I am 3 weeks and 3 days away for leaving for home. That's 24 days. I haven't been doing the countdown as much, mostly because I am preoccupied with other things. I have LONG lists of things to do before I leave, and when I get home. So what's new? =)

Well, I feel this year is slightly different because...
- I'll be 21! (what that truly signifies, I have yet to find out)
- My family will be home in the same house for the most part (that's really going to be interesting!)
- I'll be preparing my room for more permanent stay the following year
- It'd be a year since we got together officially...
- Becky can drive. haha... i don't know how much this has to do with me, but it's a pretty big change!

=) So all that's new. And all this is the same old same old.
I have to complete
- TONS of assignments
- sit for my finals
- buy stuff for people
- pack up everything

heh. I'm looking forward to escaping the cold, and eating good food... but more than that, being with my family, my sis, my boyfriend, my busy best friend and church... all that good stuff!

=) seeya in a bit!

riverside

After living 3 months next to Riverside Park, I finally made the venture across the busy road to check it out yesterday with Kathy. The park is basically a stretch of pavement about 10 metres above the river (now mostly dried up) bank and about 4-7 metres away from the main road (Riverside Drive). But the entire stretch covers maybe about 10 miles...

So I ran today, alone, from 51st to 61st and back (making it 2 miles) and walked from 51st to 54th and back, (making it 1 mile) for a total of... 3 miles!

Kathy has a plan for us to walk all next week, 5:30am tomorrow! =) heh.. now that's going to be exciting!

today

today

is one of those days where there's too much to say and no place to let it out.

is one of those days where the tears slip out without ceasing

is one of those days i go home, just so that I can cry... and then leave for my next class

is one of those days where i would like to get candles, bury myself under the cover and wish it would all go away

is one of those days where i desperately need the one thing that I cannot have

is one of those days where if God were not God, i would be even awake

is one of those day that i have to grit, grin and bear, hold back the threatening tears

is one of those days i wish i were home.

an update

hi all.

Wow.. i betcha some of you must be wondering what i've been up to. Truth is that the last few weeks have been absolutely... absolutely crazy... I guess we can say that it all started with fall break.

Something happened during fall break... and well, it was not a good thing. I had a car crash... and it was bad enough that both cars were totalled. Nobody was seriously injured, but it was horrible... and don't ask who's fault it was, cos i really well... yeah. it's over, and that's a good thing.

So the following week was school starting again, with all the homework, driving a rental car and just well, trying to get into the swing of school again... when on thursday, I found out that my car was a total loss and that I had the weekend to find and buy a new car... because they were going to take the rental back! So the desparate search for a new car began... especially since the next week, I was going to take on an extra project that required me to drive to an elementary school nearby..

To spare you guys the nerve-wrecking details, and the cumbersome financial facts, I now have a new car, and it's pretty nice. But i still miss the old one...

When finally my life seems to be going busy busy busy but rather smooth... I fall sick

And the only way to describe this week was sick. It started with a throat that HURT and felt infected on sunday, to a horrible cold/flu/cough/sore throat... by er... well... tuesday I guess. And so i stayed home on sun, tues, thurs and fri... trying to recover. I did see the doctor on thursday... and the medicine does seem to be helping. I can talk now! =) Cant believe i can actually hear my voice. It's pretty amazing! Thank God.

So anyway. that's what's been happening on my life.

On a happier note =)
I got a early birthday present! =) hehe... from my wonderful boyfriend... it was really sweet. I got a pair of pajama pants, a polo tee and a little vial of perfume. Heh.. it's a very early birthday present, but it feels so nice to be loved.

And.. becky passed her driving. Heh. I have not talked to her in a LONG while... but honestly, I haven't talked in a long while. But... yeah! I'm really happy for her actually. I cant imagine the amount of perseverance it takes to get through (not to mention the case sacrifices!)... But she earned it! yay. So now she can drive. this christmas break is going to be FUN!

And that being said... it's 33 days till i fly home! heh... it's almost just a month. Now, that's a truly exciting thought!

and yesh. if you want anything from the US, please place your orders now. =)

Courtesy of Kathy's friend's mother... I got to see some awesome awesome stuff!

http://www.cirqueproductions.com/cirquedreams.htm

=)