the plague of indecision

oh would it be that I were omnicient
or least a tad worldly-wise
but being neither
I forever tether
on edge of "yay"
or perhaps... "nay?"
or yet again, "may... be."

Sigh. it's a plague... honestly! To think that people will tell me that i'm smart and some even say "brilliant".. whatever... and i cant even make simple decisions...

What am i whining about now? (heh.. that's a question becky would ask)

To go or no to go??
sigh...
- to go boston or not during fall break
- to go home or to SF during Christmas break
- to think about going Europe or not during spring break (jireh?? comments?)

whatever. this is severly frustrating. If only time, money, temperature, emotions, relationships, people, studies, jobs, responsibilities, and all the rest were not issues... heh. but then, if they weren't issues than life would not be life... it'd be a shelled existence.

anyway, to put aside the whining, and see the dilemma for what it is.. it's a blessing. God gave us choice. We always use that in regard to choosing Him or not. But He created us and reason and logic so that we can understand that when we choose something there are consequences, and then apply that to choosing Him, knowing that there must be consequences, even if we are not so familiar with what they might be now. Faith may be a leap, but it's a leap off a line of reason and logic.

argh. going off on tangents!!! back to the subject, what will I choose? sigh.
I still don't know!